Happy Mother’s Day

Happy Mother’s Day. It truly is a happy Mother’s Day and I am so grateful to be a mom to three beautiful babies but I am struggling to find the right words to get through any kind of “happy Mother’s Day” post. Mostly because this is a hard day for me this year. I’m not sure it will always be this hard but this year it is. This is the first Mother’s Day I’m celebrating incomplete. I’m missing a key component to this day. My third child. It’s hard to believe that I will always be this incomplete. Today there were moments where it was hard to breathe but there were moments that were beautiful and filled with joy with my older two babies too.
Today Samuel was so excited to give me my present, socks with his and Mollys faces. They are perfect! Molly made me a necklace with her fingerprints and hand print flowers at church. It was a lovely day feeling all the beautiful things motherhood has blessed me with. But I’d be lying if I didn’t mention the sorrow I felt today for being a mom of a baby that isn’t here. Motherhood has changed and challenged me in so many ways. I’m a better person, I’m learning so much about Gods love through being a mom, I have grown less selfish and more compassionate to those around me. All in all I am so grateful to be a mom. I love my role as a mom. I will never, not ever, take for granted the beauty in motherhood. I am so incredibly thankful for the good, the bad, the hard, and the unbearably sorrowful parts of my journey that are all because of the immense and so fiercely intense love that I have for each of my children. I am thankful to be a mom and I will joyfully take on all that God has planned in motherhood for me. I will glorify Him in the purpose He has given me in being a mom. And I will rest assured of His love for me and my babies in this journey as a mama to a baby that He is holding close on this day.

Happy Mother’s Day to my mom whom I love so much and have learned strength and grace from. Happy Mother’s Day to the mamas who are like mamas to me in church and in life who encourage and grow my love for God each day. To my sister and sisters in laws who are incredible moms to their kids and wonderful aunts to my children. I have so many wonderful relationships and mom figures surrounding me as you can see. Even my closest friends are some of the best moms in the world. I am so grateful for each one of you for your example, guidance, love, and dedication to not only your own families but to my family and myself as well. You all being mothers around me, to me, and with me have changed my life for the better and make this motherhood journey even more filled with joy. Happy Mother’s Day to you all.